The areas of cloudy height, that are so far away and seem impossible to regain a grip on. The areas of history in your life that never seem to go away, whether by dream or by conscience; how do you conquer that weakness? Where do you begin?
That is a great question. I, for one, have been plagued by dreams and thoughts that include people from my past that I'd rather not remember so frequently. I sometimes see a connection with real life, so I pray about what God might be trying to tell me. I believe there are things that will plague us the rest of our lives. Time does not heal all wounds. We can get healing with God's help, but there will always be a scar.
So, are we meant to conquer our weaknesses? I guess that depends on what you mean by "conquer".Where do we begin?
God wants to be glorified in our weakness. So, instead of avoiding that history, how can you embrace it, find the joy in the trial (not to be confused with happiness), and seek God for comfort.
Going to Him in the midst of your memories is where I suggest you begin. Let the struggle increase your faith.
“There is plenty of courage among us for the abstract but not for the concrete.” - Helen Keller
“Love, like truth and beauty, is concrete. Love is not fundamentally a sweet feeling; not, at heart, a matter of sentiment, attachment, or being "drawn toward." Love is active, effective, a matter of making reciprocal and mutually beneficial relation with one's friends and enemies. Love creates righteousness, or justice, here on earth. To make love is to make justice. As advocates and activists for justice know, loving involves struggle, resistance, risk.” - Carter Heyward