"To be alive. Its a fire that ignites upon touch. Its getting out of the revolving door and looking ahead of the last mistakes we've made. Its similar to a smile that is very contagious, those who are interested catch it also. Being alive comes…"
Thanks for the c-arm info. Sounds like a pretty cool toy. I bet its cool to work in a hospital. I always wanted to be a doctor, an orthopedic surgeon. They get to use all the tools when operating and stuff. I used to do medical assisting and was going to use that to also do search and rescue up here in Oregon, but life happened and I decided to make a decision to do other things. You know when people are asked about their passions and they have one or two, well I have t passion to do all things I put my hands to and it can become a snare at times but with a little self-assertion I'll be alright. Dang, moving on to Rwanda huh? Congrats Jamie!! I wish I could just bounce like that and head to off to a far place of dreams. I think that when I get my pivot down and begin to make moves, I will be able to do just that and more. I talked with Saul about the move into the youth and we're moving quickly. There is so much vision for those kids and for the 365 ministry, and Saul is a great leader who needs to have as much time on his hands to do whatever he needs to, and not the things that other leaders should be able to do. So I think that its going to be a great time for me to come in and begin to have some fun. GP are you with me!! Remember that? Anyways, I want to get a camera dude. I see the pictures that you take and see that you have an artist mind and the things that interest you are some of the things that I notice also. The little stuff that has lots of power. Good stuff Ms. Thiel. Well, we are here for this purpose and for this means of serving our Creator and not ourselves, and for this purpose I see us being a good friends. I'm house sitting for the Cassidy's and am going to go wash their car. For spring break we should all get together and hang out before everybody gets all busy again. I'll talk to you soon. Bye Jamie.
Hey there! I am back in town and I slept in until about 9 this morning. I'm normally up at about 6 most mornings but I was extremely tired and did not want to aroused. I am fortunate that I have relationships with people that God put in my life because Mike Cassidy called me and wanted me to do some things at his house. If it weren't for that I would probably still been laying down. Saying this I am reminded of Jonah and how much he was always laying down and loving the horizontal position, God continually calling out to him, "Jonah, get up!" I hate to love sleep!
So, first of all Jamie, I want to say that you have a profound way with words. It is unique, careful, and soothing to read. Quite like the way that honey adds great flavor to green tea. Smooth...I have had my world turned upside down quite a few times and it had nothing to do with a different country. Right here in the U.S. I have seen the wreckage of our own people and the threat of damnation that stills my heart and makes my life in this hour glass trickle with that same concept of honey, but when it becomes sticky and somewhat too much. There is a proverb that says when you find the honey don't eat too much lest you vomit (paraphrased). We have not only asked for so much honey but took it upon our own selves to take it and then behold, like a dog, we have gone back to our own vomit. When I speak of we, our, or us, I am regarding this United States of America.
Solely within my heart though, I still am going to see the other countries that probably strive to survive for the next meal, yet still find pleasure in the simple things. In your photos, the smiles of those kids faces are one of a kind. Some people have no idea of the lifestyle of these families, the hard work of their labor, and the selflessness of their hearts, which emits these smiles of pure natural peace. The smiles of the youth of today in the US of A are only found in solitary moments in our amusement parks, malls of greater gluttony, and at the far reaches of their heart. Man, the older we get the harder it is for us to be amazed in wonder. You can see the changing places scenario in our country of believers: we want to get out of here and the seekers of freedom want to come here. I wish Lemayian and I could change citizenship. Believe me, I would do it in a heartbeat.
I know my language may sound bitter in context of the US, but please don't get me wrong. I only have a heart of speaking out for the starvation that we are facing, and hope that I too am not conformed to this craziness. I can be a fool at times. Stuck in a mentality that puts that smile on my face that would make one of those children look at me awkwardly. I must always be in the scrapyard of my car wreck, picking up the pieces of my brick wall encounter.
So, SD was what I thought it would be. Despite the weather, it remains the place where I was born and raised, the place where I became a knower of those things I now despise, and the place where I left to become a maturing man. I am far from that but steady seeking to do better. I could not wait to leave that place. It sucks but honestly, I had my world turned upside down when I saw the same old things that I raced to get away from. Man, I'll tell ya, the city itself is one of the most beautiful, and the weather is amazing, even on a cloudy day. For the average tourist it can be a place of leisure and excitement, but when you get past the boundaries of tourist into the inner city lifestyles, clank! That's the sound of the bracelets of bondage. I wanted to get my family out of the inner city and take them to the beaches and out of the comfort of their normal routines of living. They were very pleased with the effort and the time spent out of the drama. To see those smiles were again something that made me wonder about their lives in transition towards becoming seeds planted in Christ. Every night I had a hard time sleeping because I couldn't get the thought out of my mind if I was an example or a stumbling block. "Dear Lord, help me see clearly in the moments of chaos" I prayed, and then tossed and turned when I should have been in peace. I slept in the same room that my mom passed away in and it was awkward at first but then it was comforting to be in the place where she sang, slept, got dressed, laughed and cried. It was my very own place of retrospect that awarded me the thoughts of seeing my mother in the eternal.
Breakfast was at Bakers Square in Point Loma. It is one of the restaurants that my family used to go to all the time and service was a lot quicker than an hour and the food was probably as good. (I love their french toast). My cousin manages this seafood restaurant in Point Loma also called Tin's fish Market. To see him was awesome and how much he has came. Jamie, I am ready to do so many things that matter now. Like I said, going down there was like a mission trip in itself. I had an epiphany that led to me desiring to see the youth of our culture turn to the light of the cross and seeking to renew their hearts, minds, and actions in perspective of Jesus Christ. This is where I am now and now I will be so much more in pursuit of those I want to see saved because I am here for a long haul. "Staying in my scrapyard".
I spoke with Saul on Saturday about the transition into the youth and he and I will talk soon. I am very eager to be involved with the youth and allow them to grow into young men of God by their experiences and by my mentorship. Just like John the Baptist said, "I am just a voice." I will only point them in the direction of Christ and be there as a support factor. If you see any special areas of interest in regards of the youth, let me know.
Where are you moving? Why? And what is a freakin' "c-arm?"
You're cool Ms. Thiel, and no matter where you go, I'll keep you in my prayers for constant revelation and perpetual growth in the kingdom of our King. Have fun at work and I'll talk to you seen. Peace.
Hey, things are going well and I am challenged even at this very moment and finding it to be a fine "cuisine" of the LORDS amazing artistic skills in EVERYTHING! It was like a slap in the face when I came home and was confronted with the realities of my family. It is also an opportunity for me to just be Jason, like that unique sight and taste of a fine "cuisine". LOL
I think that you are going to do well for whatever you do Jamie Thiel. It can be our greatest goal to please our Father. Billy Graham once said that he wakes up every morning hoping that he does nothing to dishonor the LORD. Similarly, I go to sleep hoping that what I put into the day is the maximum of my abilities. Just like our scripture says in Deuteronomy. It goes beyond our words and also in involved with our hearts. We can be great. He is our exceedingly great reward. I want to go to Rwanda!! You know what else, I have been really looking at making a transition into the youth ministry. I am going to talk to Michael K about leaving the production ministry and also talk to Saul about helping out in the youth. High school or middle. Just like you, I want to be used to do whatever. I apologize if I didn't respond in time here. This is the first time I was able to check my email. Its about 8 o'clock in the morning on Saturday and I am getting ready to dress and go get my oldest brother Kevin so we can get breakfast. I miss San Diego, but I also know why I left.
I want to thank you for keeping in contact with me and for all the support you have. Bless you Jamie Thiel. I'll talk to you soon.
I'm glad that your family and you were able to sit around and converse about music. Especially the music that complements what you are driven by. This, Ms. Theil, is what inspires me to write more music. I hope that Bekah and Sam will find it in their hearts to continue on in seeking truth and comparing their standards of living to the living word. I am in love with this way of life that builds relationship with people through cordial conversation and eloquent differences. It defines much for me and aids in the creativity of making the music I do.
Okay, I want to travel the world and do bits of orchestra's. I explained to a friend a while ago as a very intriguing way to disciple people and to also write music that incorporates various skill levels. Not only just hip-hop but classical, eastern, western, orient and many others. God willing, I will be able to have like a traveling symphony, picking up people as i go along and allowing them to flourish abundantly in the passion that drives them. This too will allow many to relate in food too! Lol. I can see it now, thousands of musicians that are involved in the industry of pleasing others, gratifying the innate acoustic communicative sense. It all began here in this little town of Eugene, Oregon Jamie! It brought me to tears just this morning thinking about the vision that God gave me to manifest the many gifts He put inside of me. Sometimes I am tempted to think about the impossibilities of this,but I am a man, and He is Almighty. Who should I trust in?
If you look around and see the many people who travel and sit around and play music on corners, that is where I want to pick people up from. The poor and the stranger. The only difference between us and them is our knowledge of saving grace, which fortunately maintains our hearts in a steady place of repentance. Altogether, this leads me to see my roots, my family who witnessed first hand a troubled child transform into a young man living to become a blessing to another. It is beside me Ms. Thiel, to see what God has done to a people like us. You are always involved in doing things that make for an angelic countenance to emulate from your face, and regardless of what happens, our lives are only but a moment, so the expression of Christ living in us can cause great joy and pain is but a whisper of today's truths of eternity. This is what drives me to be a chaser of the Cross. Relationship, healing, and restoration are all related and take time but only in the hearts of those who desire the fullness of living. It brought you back to Eugene and it's taking me back to San Diego. Anyways, once again thank you for your help and keep your vision alive. The only failure is when we don't even try. Bless you.
Hey! Thanks for sharing those CD's, it really has been one of Brekke- my roommate- and myself's interesting feats. School is going pretty well and I am actually looking forward to dedicating more time next term to more music and travel. I just won't miss the world and the creation of music for anything. The culture of music is so diverse and there are so many countries that are influenced by its roots, kind of like a musical anthropology. Anyways, I am going back to SD this Wednesday and I was just thinking about writing an entry for some ideas when I came and saw you sent me a comment, so I just thought I would come and chop it up with ya. I am at a loss for words at how much this trip means to me and what God is allowing me to do as far as my influence on my family is concerned. Blood runs deep Jamie, and if given the opportunity, many "diseases" of familiarity can infiltrate and cause decay where God ordained excellence. I am taking that area back. This is more than just a trip, its a conquest to free myself from a troubled past and to release lots of family from the lies of poverty, addiction, fear, violence, death and many other things. Thanks again for getting those CD's out for us stay encouraged as always. Peace.
Whats up Goose? Im glad you were able to see my geese at Alton Baker. Another fact: Geese travel up to 71% farther than any other bird because of their teamwork during flight. Read that at 1171 yesterday. Interesting... lol
Yeah, i think Saul knows about the studio time, but it would be good if someone else spoke up about it too. I do have some other music that i made and could get that to you. No worries. I haven't spent much time lately in here but I am going to do a lot more though once this term is finished. I didn't see you at church yesterday!! Whats up with that?!! Just kidding. Anyways, stay focused and striving for your dream Jamie Thiel. You may not be the prototype of a great bowler, but you are a good leader and a great friend. Thanks Ms. Thiel. Seeking His Face.
Hey Ms. Thiel. First off, you are very welcome for the CD. It's my pleasure to give them out and for others to just enjoy them. I do have a lot more too. I had them last night but forgot to give them to the rest of the group. Thank you for the compliment. It inspires me to make more music here. If you have any kids in the high school group who would like to make anything they are more than welcome to come and do it here at the house. Its a blessing to have these available tools and I want to open the doors for the future ministers to open their hearts through the many avenues of worship. Ciao.
Well, I know that God uses people who are willing to be used and have an attitude of "whatever". Not in the negative connotation but towards wanting His will to be done in the lives of people who's souls are wanting. In Ezekiel 18 God spoke that "all" souls are His, and for individuals to desire to see the power of God move through other living souls to the salvation of His people, that moves His heart. You move His heart. Keep at it and stay encouraged because mercy triumphs over judgment and who else better to express that than you Ms. Thiel?
Hey Goose!! Sheep huh? I looked into the characteristics of a shepherd once and didn't find much, but looking at your photos, which are AMAZING by the way, I truly see the heart of a shepherdess in you young Miss. That's what community is about right there. Observing the heart of family within the body and being inspired by it. Stay blessed and ever striving.
Seeking His face-Psalm 115. Jason.
“There is plenty of courage among us for the abstract but not for the concrete.” - Helen Keller
“Love, like truth and beauty, is concrete. Love is not fundamentally a sweet feeling; not, at heart, a matter of sentiment, attachment, or being "drawn toward." Love is active, effective, a matter of making reciprocal and mutually beneficial relation with one's friends and enemies. Love creates righteousness, or justice, here on earth. To make love is to make justice. As advocates and activists for justice know, loving involves struggle, resistance, risk.” - Carter Heyward